Fin.

Completed my 30 radiation treatments on Monday, and I can't believe I made it. When this thing first started, I didn't see an end in sight. It really seemed sooooo far away. When going through chemo, I thought that would be the worst and roughest part, but I think that the radiation was just as hard, if not worse (my partner agrees). I still have a lot of recovering to do, and I'm so thankful to all of my friends with kids who recommended various remedies for the mess that's going on "down there". From Tucks cooling pads,"padcicles", gas relieving stretches, sitz bath tips, and beyond, if anyone can relate to this type of pain, it's the moms out there. Thank you! Thank you! to you all (and bless you for going though this pain by choice). I didn't hit the gong on the way out (many people have asked). Why? because it was 9am on a Monday, during a snow storm, and I'm sure people were in shitty moods. To be completely honest, I was also a little sad. I've come to know this place over the past 6 weeks. I saw some of the same people every day, I saw the same fishes in the fish tank every day (I even named one of them "Spot"), got to know the staff...basically, I had a routine...I was in a groove. Of course, I hated getting my ass zapped and all of that, but I will miss the routine of it all. I'll miss the "counting down" the number of treatments left to go, and feeling so happy every time I completed a week. I'll miss going for coffee with my partner after, and I'll miss the quality time that we've spent together during this time. It was actually so nice to be together every day. I've started to work again (from home of course), and I wonder if we will ever get to spend time like this together again. If not, it's something I will look back on, and try think of how nice it was...and not about how shitty this situation was. I am convinced that the cancer is gone now (or that it will be gone when my next MRI is done in a few weeks). Staying positive is the key here! You must be convinced of it, in order for it to be true.