oi,oi,oi. C.B.D. (like the song by AC/DC). The doctors say no for some reason, but the nurses (and everyone else who has compassion), say yes. Even with the dose reduction, my hands are still electric. The vape helped so much, but I find that because I don't ever really smoke or vape, the smell triggered my nausea sometimes. I asked about cbd oil or other "edible" forms to help ease the neuropathy, but I was met with a lot of resistance. "It might interfere with the chemo", or "we don't know how it will affect the liver"...is what I was told. I needed a solution. I can't live like this anymore. They would rather pump you full of opioids and other strong chemicals to alleviate the symptoms. I swear there is a pill for everything (nausea, vomiting, constipation, sleep, pain, anxiety, steroids), and it's like a constant balance of trying to get your body to be "normal". I spoke with an oncology nurse and she told me that I should take the oils, and that she has seen them help many patients. THANK YOU JESUS! I just needed that one person to have some sort of compassion and empathy for me, and tell me to do what I need to do to survive. The day of chemo, I waited until by bags were almost empty and popped 20mg of cbd (in capsules). That night, I only had one or two mild electric shock attacks and then I took a puff of the vape, and I was...ok...omg...I think it worked. Now, I can't get my hopes up, because you know I have the worst luck. So, I will say that it worked "that time". I pray to god it works next week... I'm really pissed that I waited this long to actually take the oils. Maybe if I did it at the start, I wouldn't have suffered so much the first few times. I really don't know if this will actually "harm" me, but I need to do what I have to do to get through this. My advice for anyone going through this - don't settle for suffering. If it hurts, tell someone and force them to help you find a solution. Do anything and everything you have to do so you don't have to suffer unnecessarily.
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