I didn't get any sleep last night. But don't feel sorry for me. The reason why, was not because of anything negative, it was because of excitement. I received the call that I was waiting for. No cancer in the polyp removed last week. Phew! I am so relieved and happy, but also (learning from last time), trying to remain "cautiously optimistic", to avoid being blindsided in the future. I can't help but feel like a kid the night before going on a vacation...I'm so excited! For this post, I just want to talk about all the things that make me happy. It's one of those things that you think about when you lie awake at night, and really concentrate on appreciating life, and what life means to you. For me, I've listed the things that I love more than anything in the world (in no particular order):
My partner (I won the ultimate jackpot here, I think that's clear)
Family, friends, and the infinite number of people that care about me
Laughing so hard that I cry, snort, choke, or pee myself (and then replaying those memories in my head at inappropriate times and laughing out loud)
Dancing like a complete fool without giving a shit about what anyone thinks
Animals - my cat is my actual child, but I will gladly pet, borrow, steal, or squeeze any animals that come near me
Watching funny videos (especially love animal videos and prank videos)
Travelling (epic girls trips, family trips, trips with my partner...all of it)
Music - enjoying and appreciating music is life
Energy healing and alternative medicine (I would not be where I am today without it)
Food - give me all the food. I love food. Especially eating at restaurants
Sunshine and warm weather
Giving gifts (I get so excited to give gifts - I'm usually more excited than the recipient)
Affection - giving and receiving hugs
Taking baths - everyday I must take a bath
Unapologetically watching teen dramas, true crime, and reality TV
Being a complete quirky weirdo every single day and not trying to hide it
As you can see, I've been reflecting a lot over the past several hours. I was just thinking about what the most important things in life are (to me). Everyone will have a different list, but it's something you don't often have time to think about unless you've been in this situation. I must focus on moving forward, being cautiously optimistic (I will have to do the full scans/tests every three months for a loooooong time), enjoying the "wins", and trying to enjoy the things in the above list.
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