Did Scrooge have ass cancer too?

If so, this would make a lot of sense. I would be a crusty ass old man at Christmas if I had ass cancer. Actually, I'm just a crusty ass young woman with ass cancer right now. I can tell you, I was NOT in the mood for this "holiday" season. Firstly, some of you may know that I have PTSD regarding holiday music from working in retail many years ago. Eight to ten hour long shifts of non-stop Christmas music on repeat for well over a month. To this day, I get flashbacks of this terrible experience when I hear these songs. My friends who worked with me, know my pain. Anyways, this season is shit (well, the whole year is shit), and when we were debating getting a tree or putting up lights, I was like "f that". I Scrooge'd out. Poor me...wah wah...what do I have to celebrate? I'll tell you what...nothing! Well, about a week or so ago, I started coming around to the idea of MAYBE getting a tree (a real one). Maybe it'll smell nice...and maybe my house might not smell so stale (I have not left the house in over 7 days so my house is gross). Also, my mom has a way of forcing you to do things that you don't want to do. "Oh, I will decorate the tree!" "Oh, I will take it down and put everything away!" Like you can't say no, because she loves it so much (and you don't want to break her heart). Ok, mother. I will get a tree. You win this round. We found a small-ish tree, and I told her, "only decorate it with the basics!!" (no going crazy with 100 hallmark ornaments and streamers and shit, just lights and balls. That's it!). I probably sound like a real pleasure to be around. I know. I am Scrooge. After it was all done, I have to admit, I liked it. As each day goes by, and I plug in the lights....It actually gives me......joy?! It calms me and I now plug it in during the day (can't wait for the hydro bill to come), and it brings me happiness. My cold heart is defrosting...one day at a time. I do have so much to be thankful for - and I do deserve to get some enjoyment out of this holiday season. Everyone deserves that.