One thing that you need to know about me, is that my biggest fear in life, is pain. Do not ask me if I prefer to go the "natural" route, because I do NOT. I want, and I will always want, the drugs. It's like when I'm at a restaurant and they ask me, "do you want a 6oz or a 9oz glass of wine?". ALWAYS THE 9oz! It's a given. Anyone who knows me, knows this about me.
I am NOT a hero. I do not want to feel any pain whatsoever, and I will ingest anything (yes, I think I would take anything...well, maybe not bugs. I just can't), that might prevent me from feeling pain. I think they gave me a pill for almost everything: Nausea, diarrhea,
constipation, sleep, pain, and some that I don't even know what they are, but I'll take them. I've been searching online about "alternative" medicines (aka weed) to manage the side effects, and I found some great recommendations online. I'm not much of a pot smoker, but like I said, I want to do whatever it takes to feel better, so I bought a bunch of vape pens online to try. After my first chemo, my fingers developed this shooting pain (I will create a separate post for that thrilling experience). I busted out my trusty vape pen, and Voila! a couple puffs and the pain had subsided. I think I'm onto something here. I am not embarrassed, and I don't really get the "stigma" associated with using weed, especially this day in age. I am all for trying anything and everything that might help, as long as it doesn't kill you (although, the chemo is like a nuke in your body, and is killing everything anyways...so...why not try shit out?!)
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