Keeping up.

I have to admit that I've been slacking on more than a few of my rituals, and things that used to keep me upbeat and positive. It's almost like "I'm better now, so I can be lazy and go back to normal". The truth is, that the darkness and anxiety is creeping back in. I feel like a tire with a super slow leak. Deflating slowly. I stopped doing my bio-energy healing sessions, my Naturopath moved away so I don't see her anymore, I'm not reading as much, or doing any affirmations or meditating. I need a serious "tune-up" of my spirit. I started a new job about six months ago, and I am really struggling to see where and how I fit in. I am feeling insecure and really down in the dumps. I mean, it's exactly what I asked for (less stress, work from home for the most part, nice people). Why do I feel so bad inside? At my past job, I was so stressed and overworked, but they loved me, and I loved them, I worked with some of my closest friends. I was a big fish in a big pond, and I am currently a tadpole in a little pond. I'm hoping this will get better over time, I just want to feel like I am making a difference and that the work I do is appreciated and meaningful to these people. I am going to try to get back into some of the things that kept me sane and try to establish a new routine of things that make me happy. I am trying a few new alternative healing treatments, and will get back to some of the things that got me through the toughest time in my life (like this blog!). Until next time.