Everyday is the same protocol - go into the radiation room, pull my pants down, lie down face down on the table, and get zapped. Many people have to change into a gown of some sort, but not me... it's just "hey how's it going?" I say to the radiation team, and then I expose my bare ass to all the strangers, and lie down and have them stare at my bare ass. There is no being shy or embarrassed, you just learn to do it without thinking. At first, I was thinking "okayyyy...there are men in here"...or "I wonder what the team is thinking", and now I give zero fucks. Let them all see! I don't care! The best part of the treatment though, is listening to the music while I'm getting zapped. Some days, they play classical, and some days, Abba (I really dislike Abba by the way). Today though, they were blasting some old school 90's r&b! Woo! Mariah's "honey" came on, and I was singing and trying not to actually dance to the music (you can't move while you're getting zapped). Keep in mind, I am lying faced down and my ass is exposed..so I was just bopping my head ever so slightly and mouthing the words to myself. I wanted to dance though! The songs brought me back to memories of fun times, and being carefree. I loved it! I almost forgot that my asshole was being burnt. Anyways, the power of music is so special, and it can really transport you to another place and another time, and make you forget your worries even for a few minutes. I am grateful for today.
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