Pandemic + cancer + not having to physically go into the office = silver lining. I don't want to see people, especially work people. I am so lucky to have such amazing colleagues, and my team is SO incredible, but I don't want them to see me like this. I loved to go into the office (most of the time) when I was healthy, and now I can't imagine putting on real "clothes" and trying to paint makeup over my dry, red, skin (it's like trying to put paint on a pile of rocks and wanting it to look "smooth". Not happening). I am SO lucky I get to work from home. My goal is to continue working through all of this, until I can't physically do it. I want to keep busy, and to be distracted, so I don't have to think about the reality of the situation. I do miss going into the office though, seeing and interacting with actual humans, but I'm so glad I don't have to show my face. I miss my friends more than anything. I miss laughing so hard, that I would actually choke or gasp for air (I know that sounds weird, but that's what happened at work on most days). I have my dearest friends to thank for that. I met most of them at work, but I love them more than anything, and I can't imagine life without them.
Oh, I've also coined the term "FOVC", which stands for Fear Of Video Conference. It is an actual phobia that I have, and I hate being on VC. Please don't force me to be on camera - I won't do it, or, maybe I will, but I will hate you.
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